About Me

New England, United States
I'm a mom, community (non-political) volunteer and organizer, graduate student, and knitter of pants trying to find my way in this new decade.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

My new favorite book: Blessed Unrest

Paul Hawken is a new intellectual hero of mine. Full disclosure: My intellectual heros are often not the people who have ideas that are ground breaking, but are those that interpret for me the collective ideas of others--fully cited, of course--in a way that strikes me awe filled.

How does Paul Hawken qualify? Look to page 175.

He first cites a molecular biologist's top 16 list for qualities of living objects and makes the intellectual leap that this socially-conscious and -relevant "environmental movement" he biographies in this book relies on concepts that can enlighten us to our Gaia sensibilities deep within. Hawken likens non-profits and community organizations to cells, building into organ-like "aggregates" (p. 175), and into the movement, the final, yet ever evolving, organism. Information is the central currency and communication the economy. "Yeah, yeah ... social theory as a philosophical spin on biological theory--nothing new, just reframing, but an interesting thought," I mused.

Then, on page 178, a golden nugget. Wendell Berry's theory of "solving for pattern" makes him another hero of mine, but still just behind Hawken (since without Hawken, I might have not heard of the nugget). Hawken paraphrases this "pattern" as "a solution that addresses multiple problems instead of one." It doesn't mean that solutions are only worthy if they are magic bullets, but emphasizes the global nature of action within an integrated system. As an urban environmental leader, I need to keep integrated contexts in mind ... and to have the "story" that illustrates and illuminates these connections to other people (i.e. funders, members, foundations, really any audience).

Another one on page 179! Hawken, you are on a roll! with "Nature recycles everything; nothing is wasted, nothing is thrown away because there is no 'away'." This is the principle behind the Ravenwood Collective, a cooperative living and sustainability education "experiment" where our new advisor, Lily Fessenden, lives and teaches in Maine. Not only does this point further emphasize the need for critical evaluation of our own (personal) ecologies, but it emphasizes my (and Lappé's) former point that communities are the key to it all.

The silver bullet, if there was one, has a semi-permeable membrane of community-building filled with a cytoplasm of scientific information and organelles filled with good deeds, constructive criticism, and education. This is what sustainability looks, smells, and tastes like.

Leadership then is active participation in bullet creation and support. Thank you, Hawken: well done and better said.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

"Musings on the Pitfalls of Perfect" by Thekla Richter

This is a re-post from a blog I follow. Why, oh why, did this not exist when I was in college? ... or even grad school (pt. 1)?

Musing on the Pitfalls of Perfect

Posted: 13 Apr 2010 03:34 PM PDT

"Forget your perfect offering.
There is a crack in everything.
That's how the light gets in."

-Leonard Cohen

Photo by Laszlo Ilyes

It's so easy to get caught up in the land of perfect, the land of "should." There are some things that you work on that are worth holding up to very high standards indeed, but for most things in day-to-day life, good enough will actually be just fine. Here are some reasons why plenty of the stuff you do doesn't need to be perfect:

  • Getting started sooner will get it done faster, and often better, than planning it out perfectly before you begin.

  • Be wary of comparing yourself to others and imagining that they are perfect. They have struggles and doubts and flaws too, underneath.

  • Sometimes, quantity does matter over quality-- if getting it perfect means taking ten times longer over every task, you're operating at 10% efficiency. What would it feel like to be 10 times more productive? Or maybe just eight times more productive and haveway more fun?

  • Sometimes finishing it in some form matters more than finishing perfectly.

  • That voice in your head demanding perfection might not be yours, but someone from your past-- listen closely to that voice, and think about where it comes from.

  • Most work will not be looked at by others nearly as closely as you are looking at it now. (The trick is identifying where your highest standards will truly matter, and saving that degree of effort and time for those projects only.)

  • Failure or criticism are always possible regardless of whether you do it "perfectly" or not... being perfect cannot protect you.

  • Worrying too much about being perfect makes it more difficult to be creative and innovative.

  • Fiercely identifying the bare minimum that needs to get done allows you to decide where it's worth putting in extra effort, and where it's not really worth the time and energy.

  • You are not your work.

  • Delaying a decision to figure out how to make the perfect choice is in fact making achoice by default-- and rarely the best choice in my opinion.

  • You don't need to be perfect to be worthy of love, praise or any other good thing you desire. You are already intrinsically worthy.

Do you have any other thoughts to share about perfectionism?

Note: this post is brought to you imperfectly late, well after the morning deadline I usually aim for. And you know what? That's actually okay.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Relational Practice

I came across a term I don't like: "relational practice." This appears to go beyond the golden rule of treating others as you yourself prefer to be treated. It suggests that within grassroots organizations, workers should focus heavily on modeling the relationships and types of societies they aspire to politically. The key problem, which is thankfully addressed by the authors, is that this can get in the way of "THE WORK" of the organization.

To relate this to a discussion we have been having about Frances Moore Lappé's book Getting a Grip, there we have agreed that positive thinking is harder to maintain, but all the more inspiring, than negative thinking a la her downward spiral of fear. Positive thinking is supported externally; negative thinking are supported by self-doubt and enhanced by institutionally preservationist behaviors. What better way than have a small community (like a grassroots organization) work on supporting their own members and their communities' positive outlook? Simple solution? Not really.

I fear (budumbum ching) that these small communities have the tendency to attract people who are filling an emotional or social void in their life through their interactions with the group and group members. They support the work of the organization, but are the first to collapse into habits of clique-forming, bullying, micromanaging, and gossiping. They feel good vibes when the goings good and fall into depths of despair when solutions appear far off or, god forbid, they feel taken for granted. They feel exceptionally close to their co-workers because those pesky norms of corporate or educational institutions appear not to be enforced. With informality, comes noise. When I say noise, I mean those interactions that stand in the way of progress, that require attention "to work out" in deference to time spent accomplishing something for a client, constituent, or other collaborator. By focusing so heavily on relational practice, the goals of the organization--if small enough--can become diverted by the emotional needs of its members.

I am sure that is not the point of relational practice. Unintended consequences are still consequences.

Chetkovich, C., & Kunreuther, F. (2007). From the ground up: Grassroots organizations
making social change. Ithaca, NY: Cornell University Press.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Amazing Things I Have Learned in the Middle of The Night

One: "knitting" blogs come in all shapes and sizes. My new favorite one, I Live on a Farm, has a special pattern under "charity knitting" for a shopping bag in the exact dimensions of a traditional plastic shopping bag. For what charity? Mother Earth. Shh. You might get one for Christmas.

Two: my brother's friends are cooler than I expected. One in particular, Thelka, is pregnant with girl number one in Seattle. She is married to a former Microsoft man who, when my husband and I first met him, handed us a card with a gmail.com email address on it. It figures he doesn't work for Microsoft now ... who could last there as a vegan?
Anyway, I never knew what Thelka did for work until a few nights ago when I was browsing the internet at the wrong hour to be awake. She, too, is a blogger. She writes about personal empowerment, goal-setting, and time management. Her insights are particularly useful ... check her out.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

On Writing

Stephen King's book On Writing remains unread on my shelf. Many people have told me to read it. After my latest read (that I am in the midst of), I can honestly say that the next time someone asks me what book they should read about writing, I will say:

"You know, I think its a toss up. First, you should read Strunk and White's Elements of Style and then you should read Linda Lear's Rachel Carson: Witness for Nature."

I am enraptured by this biography of Carson, completely. Carson--as a writer--took copious notes about herself, her surroundings, and those closest to her. Lear weaves together letters, journal entries, articles, and book content from Carson and others to give a full portrait of a writer, turned book-learned scientist with a flare for choosing too complicated hands-on research projects, turned government-employed technical writer, turned nature writer extraordinaire. The Sea Around Us has just been published ... and I can't wait to see how she gets on to writing her other works and how she finds herself a witness at a congressional hearing.

This work of Carson's in particular has special meaning for me. My mother read The Sea Around us when she was young, studied Marine Botany in college, and decided to sign up in the midst of her degree for a new sail training and oceanography program that included a voyage to Jamaica. The captain for the leg home to the states was Dr. George Nichols. Ann Ratcliff, years later, became my mom.

What fascinates me most about this book, besides its clear role in the creation of me, is that Carson wrote it because she deeply wanted it to exist. Our environmental work should always carry with it that commitment: I see this void; I want to fill it; I need to solicit all the help I can muster to make it happen. Carson's help came in the form of researchers, primary literature and reports, her family, her friendships, and, finally, the land, coast, and ocean that peaked her child-like curiosity.

May we all find something that makes us--at our core--so excited to be alive.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

My life as a community organizer

Realistically, there is no formal training required to become a community organizer. I have found myself in this role at the Friends of the Middlesex Fells Reservation. How did this happen?

In 2009, I helped to start a community lecture series on topics of natural and cultural history. I wanted to learn more about the Fells myself and I figured that if we invited people out to free lectures, they'd come. After all, I wanted to go. I polled the public online and over half (about 60+ people) said they would be interested in coming to such events. After that, it took one meeting between myself, our volunteer hike leaders, and my organization's executives to decide that lectures would be cool ... now, eight events later over 150 people have attended these programs.

I believe this to be a thinly-veiled example of Lappé's living democracy. Participating in free education is rightly outside of election and market forces. Although the events take place in government buildings (DCR-managed state property), they are set-up, broken-down, and performed by individuals who are dedicating their unpaid work time to the cause of free environmental programming, as are those leading our hikes. I have to admit that having facilitated an event series where 10-40 people reliably show up, no matter the topic, is a personally powerful experience. I didn't make it happen; we made it happen. We lived, and continue to live, the democratic process and made possible these experiences of socializing over science and environmental history. I learned, more deeply, that education is a key to fostering deep environmental consideration. Community organizing is my new job; unpaid, but incredibly real.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Community-building as a Process of End Products

I have this theory, which, lucky for me, is a focus of Frances Moore Lappé's book Getting a Grip. Our theory is that the solution is community-building. The solution to what? Everything.

"Our planet's survival therefore depends on whether we can make the break--whether we can affirm or not, as I've stressed, the goodness of human nature but the richness in human nature. Nature, as it turns out, has equipped us with just what we need to make this great turning: our hard-wired needs and capacities for community bonding, for meaning and efficacy beyond day-to-day survival, for fairness." (p. 132)

The more I feel a connection to my community, the better a citizen I become, the more aware I am of other people; of physical, of intellectual, and of mental spaces; of concrete ecological processes. Participating in making connections with others and facilitating others becoming connection-makers themselves, as I do at the Friends of the Fells or I have in my role as a teacher, is incredibly rewarding. I like doing good works. It makes me feel alive, complete.

Theory, theory, theory, practice ... oh, I have to implement now? I have come to realize that there are three types of people in the world: (a) implementers, (b) idea people (often managers), and those who have made the bridge between a and b. I would like to think that I fall into the last category, but that I haven't found the language to bridge both societies yet. I would like to be the "manager" that implements. The person who behaves as if there is a hierarchy, but speaks to team members as if there is no hierarchy. This requires a great deal of skillful communication, including getting people on board with ideas and decisive action items. Where do I get this language? Where do organizations get this language?

Lappé has something to say to me, and to us.

"To avoid the unintended backfiring of 'helpful' acts, we can dig to root causes, always asking: How am I interrupting a negative cycle that creates suffering or reinforcing a positive one that contributes to new, life-serving rules and norms?
To answer this question, for me it's helpful to distinguish between 'issues' and 'entry points.'
'Issues overwhelm. They hit us as distinct problems, piles and piles of them. We hear about child slavery, violence against women, hunger, of HIV/AIDS, deepening inequality, pollution and global heating, depression, failing schools ....
I feel buried, smothered under a mountain of problems. I want to cry uncle.
'Entry points' are very different.
Entry points we can detect because we're weaving a theory of causation ... They are deliberate actions that strengthen the flow of causation, putting in motion the Spiral of Empowerment ..." (p. 136-137)

Lappé is not suggesting we make action alone. She suggests we use groups and human connection to empower ourselves and others to make lasting change in the world by tackling our concerns head on. Entry points are theoretical planning strategies around which to organize honest, collective action. The planning is an end product, the relationships that result are end products, movement towards change is an end product, as is the change itself. Success can be measured on any one of those end products, even if we hope for all of them.

Again, Lappé teaches me to honor the process because this is the best way to prepare for future community work.